Don’t be afraid of your fears. They’re not there to scare you. They’re there to let you know that something is worth it.
—C. JoyBell C. (via kushandwizdom)
Traveling opens up a person’s eyes and mind to so many possibilities and they said that a vacation will keep your mind away from reality. The simple pleasure of traveling is appreciating what is in front of you.
Well, this vacation certainly opened my eyes to things i refused to see before. This vacation gave me the pleasure of appreciating the places where i’ve been to as well as the people i was with. But it didn’t keep my mind off reality, instead it pushed me to reality. I learned that Life is not about having countless of people standing by you. Life is not about having money to spend or having a good time at clubs or eating out. Life is actually about the simplest things that i used to take for granted…. That Life is actually about family. I realized that I am more than grateful to have them, to have sisters that i can always count on, parents and step-parents who never gave up on us and for a baby brother who brings so much joy and happiness in our home.
This vacation made me explore the reality. It made me a better person knowing that despite the distance i have my sisters, not only them but also my friends who took some time from their busy schedule to see me. Sometimes the person you least expected to show some effort will be the one giving more than enough.
I realized that those people i thought would have my back until the end, those people whom i thought would be my friends for years and years would stick around, but they didn’t. Maybe, it was the distance. Maybe they felt that i am way too far to be their friend, and i learned to accept that or maybe I’m on the process of accepting that. At least i know that by the end of this all, i was a good friend. I treated them the way i thought they would treat me, too. But i can never please everyone and i’m done trying.
This vacation was an eye-opener. I am done asking myself “why?” I am done… I have my family and friends that i know i can count on. It doesn’t matter if i dont have a lot but atleast i know they treasure my friendship as much as i treasure theirs. Bottomline, i’m glad i had this vacation. i learned so many things and i am now ready to improve myself coz i have been holding on for so long and maybe i expected too much but i’m done blaming myself for things i didnt do. Im done looking at their fb accounts, and instagram. I’m just done with them. I’m learning to accept things and i will continue to improve myself and i will continue to ignore these negative thoughts and feelings. Im done being nice. Im moving on from them physically, emotionally and mentally. And i am finally letting happiness take over me. I dont need their friendship just like how they dont need mine.
I only need my family and those 8 people who never gave up on me.